Goodbye June, hello July.

June wasn't a particularly good month, in fact it was terrible.

The two weeks in Vietnam gave me plenty of time to think about what I want (in the most selfish way), and what I don't want. Letting go wasn't easy, but more than anything it was necessary. Painful, but necessary. And dealing with the aftermath and consequences wasn't a walk in the park either. I'm learning to let go, and it does get a little easier every day. Van's gone for summer exchange and I am not exactly sure how to start talking to b again. Not having the people I'm so comfortable around is not a good feeling, but despite everything I still feel really really blessed for having a bunch of close friends that are always there for me. Old friends like them are gems to me, and I'm never letting them go. And then there's a new friend that I am really thankful for. I never expected us to get along so well. But we do, very comfortably. And I like talking to you. Maybe it's because we are both antisocial kids, so I know that you know I am not good at making conversation, or sustaining one, or initiating meetup, or telling people what is on my mind. I know you are trying to talk a bit more to me, to get me to tell you what's bothering me. I've never told you but I really appreciate all that you've done. And you always know the right things to say.

If anything the past few weeks have showed me that if you care about somebody enough, then it really is not that difficult to make the time and effort to text them, or talk to them, or meetup with them. But at the same time I also realized just how easy it is to neglect a relationship and let it slip away.

I fell myself grow up a little bit already.